Years ago I was struggling with pornography. I would fall into it and hate myself for it. I felt an incredible amount of shame and condemnation. As a result I was not pursuing God. I hated this sin but was powerless to overcome it in my own strength. I remember one night in particular. My son Joshua who was very young had the worst day ever. That day he did everything that we didn’t want him to do. I remember that evening Amy gave him a bath. He came running out in his little pajamas with his hair slicked to the side. He ran over to me jumped on my lap and put his little head on my chest. I wrapped my arms around him and squeezed him tight. At that moment I wasn’t thinking about anything he had done wrong that day. The only thing I was thinking was how much I loved him. It was at that moment that God spoke to me. He said “on your worst day, what you feel for your son does not compare with how much I love you. Don’t run from me, but run to Me, because I’m the only one who can set you free.”
I had placed all of my focus on trying to not sin, I was failing miserably, I was under the weight of condemnation and utterly exhausted. When the lord spoke that to me, I humbled myself by believing Gods word that He forgave me when I asked for it, that I did not have to come under condemnation and that His mercy is brand new every morning. This freed me to take my focus off of the problem and place my focus on the solution. Whatever you focus on becomes magnified. As I magnified Christ through His word, worship and prayer, the Lord set me free. Are you struggling in some area? It doesn’t matter what the issue, fix your eyes on the savior. Refuse condemnation, and hopelessness. Receive His empowering grace and Seek first his kingdom and His righteousness, and everything falls into it’s place behind that. If you are born again and have asked for forgiveness, then you’re forgiven. Receive it, set your focus on Jesus and move forward.